your perfect love

awww. i just looked at your blog and all our crazy photos!
man. its hilarious. my mum's jaw would definitely drop if she sees them!
sweet sweet pictures! (: 
we used to take millions of pictures together! hahaha
i just impulsively felt like blogging one special entry for you after seeing the pictures.

im soo glad God let me meet you! (:
i think we really share that kind of special sisterly chemistry.
the one that we just look at each other and laugh and laugh. 
although both of us have new friends and very close ones too, i just wanna let you know, you're really a very very unforgettable friend.
we may not be very close together now, as in yeah, physically and all,
but we know each other so well. 
thanks for all the great time we used to have! 
im sorry for the miscommunication too. something went wrong somewhere.
but it turned out as a good change too in a way.

love you bestie! (:
and i missed you loads though i dont really express it. 
but we both know, deep down :D

twoplay! <3

and i think i may be going on hiatus too. schoolstuff is, pretty..dah.

im finally back!
hahah. havent updated for ages.
was still contemplating whether to continue blogging or not ; kinda lazy to blog already
but i guess some people like ahem shauna ng, would totally whack me for not blogging.

guess where we went?
J8! its like, our usual hangout spot.
oh,but there's no more neoprint shop :( 
shauna and i had fun shopping and cam-whoring though.
we did the craziest thing possible. i think all the shop owners would hate us for it.
but it was pretty fun(: 
thank God for providing a way for shauna and i to be able to meet up!
we missed our appointments so many times. 
i guess now, we're kinda back to normal, chatting away and being hyper :D

i think the cam-whoring was abit overdoing it though. =x
it was kinda bad.

yeahh. and my europe trip was really nice!
best city - PARIS! its beautiful, beautiful and beautiful. It has been my dream holiday destination! 
                 the fashion there is totally drool-a-licious! its very expensive though, of course. 
                 the people there are very well-dressed and i just marvel at the Notre Dame Catheral. 
                  its super gothic and just beautiful. didnt go in though. only could admire from the outside
                the best part of being in Paris is the night cruise! (: went pass alot of important buildings like the effiel tower!
                its a very romantic and artistic place! 
best country/island type place -  SWITZERLAND! mountains, waterfalls, snow! People live in adorable swiss cottages, everything is so relaxed. Austria too. we stayed in a tiny town thats just, fairytale. i would love to live there.

best experience- playing with snow on the swiss mountains! i mean, its my first place seeing real snow.

best food- hmmm. thats really hard. i couldnt get used to the food. the portions are HUGE man. 

i love going to the churches. You would totally be awed by their beauty. 
i went to st.paul, st.mark, st.peter churches. there are alot of tiny churches around too. 

oh man. THANK YOU, GOD! thank you for providing me with this trip, blessing our family with this amazing holiday!

saturday's sermon was cool. talking about DREAMS!
sometimes i really feel so finitely small and such a terrible person at times and i wonder, why does God still bother 
with me? Why would He love me so much even when i walked away. His love. Oh God, you're so compassionate, so faithful. I know You are forgiving. 

and i really love the song 
"..You hold the universe, and still you run to the broken"

trust in God! (: you may be struggling and God knows. He totally totally understands and He wanna help you with it!
i know you are kinda troubled over it. I pray that God's presence will always be so real to you and you will find comfort in Him, find wisdom in Him. That you will know what to do and walk it out with God :D

and to a sister that i know reads my blog and hardly ever tags,
God wants you back. so so much. He feels so much more heartpain than anyone of us.
i know my words may not matter to you, but i pray God's words will. 

'though the mountains be shaken
and the hills be removed
yet my unfailing love for you will never be shaken
nor my covenant of peace be removed
says the Lord,who has compassion on you"

and to my insane partner, dont be discouraged about the dance thing.
it may just be good for you. keep praying! (:
im sorry if i've not been a good sister recently and was impatient with you (:
love lots

Whatever people say
whatever may go on
i will hold on to you

Wherever i may be
I know you're always there
Always right there for me

I know im weak
but in you, i find my strength
although i'm weary
my soul still sings for you
and in my darkness
i will turn to you
Jesus you,
are everything to me

I know you don't let go of me
your faithfulness prevails
and with all that i am
i will hold on to you

i'm close to tears
falling on weak knees
my world spinning out of control
but in you, i am found.
your love will keep this heart
beating on

with all i am
and all my soul
i'll hold on
i'll hold on
for all i have is you
Jesus


im not a very emo person. not really anyway.
but somehow i just sang out my emotions.
i know it'll get tougher to hold on, but its a battle that God is with me.
and that means everything. 

there's always a silver lightning behind every dark cloud, i think.
if not, life would be pretty miserable at times. 
so yeah. don't let anything get you down. 

three more days!(:
ps. i just lurrrrve the lime green nail polish i saw in female(magazine).

Finally the midyears are over! (:

the papers were quite alright i guess, some were more on the difficult side ; especially chem.
actually even if the chem paper was easier, i still would not understand it very well. Chem is just..like what jolene says, alien language to me. hahah. i already expect to fail chem horribly. If i pass, then its really a miracle!

Anyway, talking about exams just makes me go arrggghh.
yay! i think i can go with tseng yi and jolene they all for iceskating on sunday!! (: 
and then tseng yi and i are gonna shop! 
it'll be my first time going out with them too. I mean jolene and tseng yi and crystal(not v.sure if she can make it :(

i really thank God for answering my prayers!
Jieming and i prayed for tarina, she hasn't done her quiet time for really long, and so i smsed her to kinda talk to her about it. Now she's doing her quiet time again! (: im glad she didnt give up on God.
God is really an awesome God!! I thank Him for even bringing jolene into my life! To make us insane partners too! 
Sitting with jolene makes me more reminded of God, and i feel very comforted in a way that she shares the same passion for Christ(:  thanks jolene for always listening to me telling you about God, about church, and being there for singing worship with me! :D

and i was feeling kinda low on sunday,
then God really comforted me and showed me that i dont have to fear. 
i think i was abit consumed by the revelations. 
He's really a great God. Sometimes i feel like He's my faithful bestfriend, but i dont seem to grasp how powerful and almighty He really is. Probably i cant imagine how powerful a person can be, but God is really so powerful beyond 
my own imagination and thoughts. 

I keep taking photos of the sky lately.
hahaha. i know its very random. but i dont know why i just seem to..appreciate the sky more?
i look at the clouds and i feel this really nice feeling. Now i see why people like to cloud-watch. 
maybe we're so busy with our lives then we dont really pause and have a good look at the little things around us.
But once we really take notice, then we'll find, its really so beautiful and incredible. Why did we not see it before?

I think this holiday is a great time to grow even closer to God(:
im gonna study very hard for Him. He provided me with good education and doting parents that willingly spend so much on my tuition and all, i really must make best use of it. Help me not to be complacent, Lord. 
Its quite hard for me cos sometimes i just feel, tired to study or simply overwhelmed, but God i know you're there for me. I thank you for even showing me this impt thing about my studies. 

to mr dumbie.


i was reading your blog entry and my ego was swelling up. hahaha. but its really God who let me know you and become good friends with you. You're really encouraging too, you know. I see you changing and trying to change for God. I saw the fire ignite in you again when you were drifting in spiritual low. And then i see that i'm not alone in this struggle. You understand what i feel too and you're always there for me. 
There are times when our friendship goes pretty argh. But then we learn to love and forgive. I thank God for you. 
I pray that you'll grow alot more in Christ too, that your decisions will be wise, with the grace of God. I pray that God will even add on to you and that you'll be firm in your faith and always trust in Him. I pray that your fire for God will even spread to people around you (: 

you're a great friend. 
(and a talkative sister) :D 

God bless in your preparations for your exams! (:

i haven't posted for a loongg time.
there's alot of homework and tests.
and besides all that, there's also other stuff.

i thank God for being so faithful to me.
i haven't been a very faithful child lately but i really thank God for giving me chances.
I really feel like crying sometimes, out of happiness and gratitude that He's been my dearest friend all this time
especially when i'm the one who turned away or failed. But God is always there. 
Friends may come and go, and everything may seem hopeless, but God is a friend that is always faithful.
i haven't been dedicating much to God
and i'm sorry for it. If there's anything i should boast or be happy about, its what God has done for me and everything He is.
He's really added on to him lately. and im really happy bout that (: 
its really encouraging. because i can really see change in his life, that's something that only God can do(:

midyears are coming in 2 weeks. its soo soon. 
there always seem like there's alot alot to study.
but its also because of this, that i have kinda put God as second for the past days.
I focused too much on my studies. and im sorry to God for that.

my 5 items this week! ;( its quite, daunting. 
i mean, i'm quite okay with everything except PULL UPS. i really cannot do pull-ups.
and now's abit too late to train cos if i train now, i'll just have muscle-aches and that will make it even worse on wednesday.

next weekend would be exciting. 
i'm having my chinese orals either on friday or sat(pls dont let it be sat,God!)
and there's zibing's wedding, phantom of the opera and syf day!
and i have sore throat now. i just pray it'll get better by then.

where i lose myself, i will find you're all i need

and thank God that april finally has a handphone! it makes it so much easier to contact her and check on her qt.
and thank God that i can stay for dinner at church! or atleast, i stayed yesterday. ((: 
and thank God that samuel's able to join us for service,cell group,dinner. God brought it to mind a few weeks ago and i was praying and praying. and although i've forgotten about it, God didn't and He answered my prayer ;D
oh and thank God that my relationship with someone is getting better too. 

my tablet is so slooowwwww.

ahh. everyone around me seems to be dieting..
even the tall slim ones are also going on a major diet.
its almost like an influence.
but we're in a girls school so its pretty expected.
i think dieting is okay. but not too..extreme.
just cut down on junk food. and exercise more.
if you're eating healthily, then it shouldn't be a major weight problem.
now everyone's eating fruits. yeah, the latest dieting tool. 

and i just went to take my passport-sized photos for my new EZ-link card.
i look soo....
my eyes can hardly be seen and my face looks so big. my hair so screwed too ;(
im not exactly very unhappy about my looks but sometimes i just feel like throwing eggs at my own photos.

this week has been so hectic.
so much work + 2.4 run. 
i felt pretty tired yesterday and today.
especially last night. i don't know why, but i almost couldn't keep my eyes open when i'm doing my quiet time.

oh and we celebrated the jan-march birthday girls today.
They bought this HUGE cake, about $70++ 

how i wish i can go to church tomorrow.
tomorrow sounds pretty boring. 
and jolene's hairdo really makes her look like susan from narnia!
its really fun sitting with jolene. we keep humming and singing worship songs in class, and she's a complete nut.
mr tan calls her the 'powerhouse'. We keep laughing and laughing and doing crazy stuff in class.

and i got through the auditions. ohhhhh thank God! (:

the holiday's ending soon! ;(
but this holiday hasn't really been a holiday anyway.
went back to sch for enrichment from monday-wednesday.
then thursday had choir.
and today i'm having math+chinese tuitions

the TCM enrichment was...quite okay lah.
but i feel its quite a waste of time. 
the only highlight is usually lunch. 
the first thing fangying said to us when she came to class was like,
where are we going for lunch?
but we ended up going to tanglin mall food court for the consecutive three days. 
all of us were very bored during the class. 
unless we have some experiments to do. 

jeslyn, vanessa and i keep singing the hana kimi soundtracks.
especially 'wo yi zhi dou zai' 
its soooo nice (: 

choir was..okay but kinda scary when ms tham came.
she eliminated some of the juniors out of SYF immediately.
i doubt i can meet the standards though. its really very very strict.

oh and my parents brought me out for dinner last night. and my dad was talking to me about choosing my future career. I have no idea about what to be.. 

and i went with my cousin to the gym on wednesday.
the gym has only like 12 equipments. and its a LADIES-ONLY gym. 
and my ____ is like ______.
:((